Let me be lighter,
I'm tired of being a fighter.
Could you beam me up?-Pink
Another year. Another time for me to let out a collective sigh and to continue moving on.
I've been stuck in a bipolar hell for about two weeks now, and we all know that when that happens I get stuck in the accident and the loss of Greg. I've got to say that it all gets so old, but I just can't NOT do it. I just wish this was some sort of thing that I can make the hurt go away. But I feel like I'm screaming under water.
I'm glad that I've resisted the urges to do things to harm myself. It's not to say that it's easy, I just want the pain to go away.
Not a pill, or self harm will help me. This is a step forward. But for him, I'll find a way to keep him alive some day.
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3 comments:
I'm so sorry that you continue to struggle with Greg's death. I wish I had a magic wand to wave over your head to help you deal with the pain. Love you.
Dear sweet Woman, I know that it is very difficult for you, and easy for me to say but....you already know the answer..and in time you will let yourself! It is a part of the journy that you are on and as you have already discoverd in your recovery you can only go 1 day at a time. This truth holds for everything and for always..
Love and a LARGE HUG to you. And BTW you look absolutely beautiful(heart fluttering) in your last pic!!!!
Thanks to both of you. Y'all have always been there for me and I love you for it.
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