Saturday was an amazing day that continued on to be a wonderful night. Y'all would have been proud of ol' hard ass Anna because she actually shed tears during that evenings festivities. It's still hard for me to take praise and compliments and I was a bit squeamish to sit still and just listen to what my peeps had to say.
I'll just go ahead and get the unpleasant part out of the way. Le hub did not attend my little celebration. He had to work, of course. Strange that he said he needed the money but then took off Sunday AND today. Hmm. I'm not bitter about it either considering the fact that he's only gone to one NA meeting this entire past year and never supported me in one aspect in my recovery. For me to have been bitter would mean I was surprised and I wasn't. To be honest, Anna doesn't even care.
Enough of bad ju ju.......
My sponsor came down from Jtown and shared her story with my home group and it was unbelievably moving. Those members who have been in this with me from the early days each took turns getting up to congratulate me and encourage me for the long road I'm still on. After all, what's one little year in a life time? (Hopefully, it's going to be a long one anyway) I'm just a baby in this new life. God damn it!
AB and Ri presented me with my year medallion and as soon as Rilee began to say something to me, he broke into tears that AB dissolved into next. I was already crying so we all kind of fell into a wet faced, tangled hair mess. To feel the unconditional love of your children is something that there are no words in any language that would come close to describing. All I can say is that I do realize how incredibly fortunate I've been in regards to my children and they drive me harder to be a better person.
I'm not really clear on what I said in the little speech I gave because I was trying so hard not to speak while snot was pouring out of my nose. I fucking hate people who try to talk while they are crying in their garble screeching voices and fucking spit coagulating on their lips and they slobber it down their chins and spew it at people around them...........Oh, I'm sorry. Where'd that come from?
After the pussy wussy festival, we ate KFC and had red velvet cake for dessert. Not mentioning how great it is to hang out with people who I love so much despite the fact that a year ago I would have crossed the sidewalk if they'd been coming toward me. I always thought I was so fucking unique and special! But NO! I'm as useless and regular as the next sick fuck sitting by me. :)
Life is beautiful, bitches. Simply beautiful.
Oh, here's a PS. That picture is a re enactment of them giving me the coin. We are after all anonymous. Plus me and AB needed to fix our rain soaked faces. :)
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